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War Inside My Heart (Demos)

by Mr. Mourning

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1.
The Importance of Self Love 05:41
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I don't wanna think about the past I don't wanna think about things that couldn't last I don't wanna think about how we fucked things up and left it as it was I'm sorry I was never enough I'm sorry I couldn't keep up with your love But I tried my best and unlike the rest I kept my word about using my heart 'til there was nothing left I tried my best and unlike the rest I kept my word about using my heart 'til there was nothing left It's okay to want to cry it out It's okay to want to scream it out It's a way of letting go of the darkness within A way out, to let yourself breathe once again Let the answer into your eyes Embrace the greatness deep within yourself I'm trapped in memories That only make sense to me Break away from damaging yourself Save some way to relax your own health Learn to love yourself As much as I keep trying I'll always become the failure Look into my eyes and see no matter what I'll continue to drown in depression Drown in depression I'll keep fighting 'til the day I die I'll keep fighting 'til the day I die
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Acceptance 04:21
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The first step is to accept your failure The next step is to forgive yourself The third step is to continue moving forward And last but not least, learn from your fucking mistakes Don't believe that this is the end This is only the beginning Listen to what your heart is trying to tell you Think of the consequences given in time Trust yourself to make the right decision You've gotta get yourself in the right lane They try to distract you They want reactions out of you Disgusting, wasting precious time Erase the filth out of your mind Time to take control into your hands Begin to fix what you can Don't slow down, don't waste your time It's time to unwind to the unkind of your mind Unwind to your own mind Unwind to your own mind Go! You're not the problem You're the solution You're not the problem You are the solution You are the solution You are the solution You are the solution We are the solution
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Broken Wings of an Angel 02:55
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(Instrumental)
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Moving On 05:12
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How do I express myself without feeling like a burden? Feeling like you'd hear that I'm doing better than before Maybe I have, but my mind keeps tricking me Some days I wake up feeling better Most days my heart feels like it's in the gutter Desperately trying to find a way out But constantly drowning in all of my failures I'm just background noise Easily ignored Easily forgotten about Some care Most don't Usually feeling worthless I wanna leave, but I won't I'm not going to wait anymore I won't put my life on hold for you I've gotta continue down my own path I've gotta keep fighting through I don't expect you to understand I don't care what you think But I've gotta do what I've gotta go And I'll let you find yourself as well They don't care They never cared They suffer as long as I suffer here Breathe in And slowly breathe out Don't care what I'm functioning without I'll do this all by myself They don't care They never care They suffer as long as I suffer there Breathe in And slowly breathe out Don't care what I'm functioning without I'll do this all by myself I need to learn to let things go Nothing lasts forever but I'll keep the memories in my soul
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Unnatural Behavior 08:45
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Pass me the bottle of whiskey I want to numb my feelings quickly Haven't eaten all day so it hits me harder I don't care of it's straight or flavored Shot after shot Drink after drink Either way, my spirit will sink Feelings will disappear My ego will shatter I've grown true to myself But it doesn't matter It doesn't matter Ill keep on drinking Until I stop thinking Worrying about something 'Til I realize it's nothing I want to be free, away from myself Take away all the pain and loneliness in my heart Give me a sign of love, a sign of relief I want to break free, give me some space to breathe Maybe if I finish the bottle A sign of clarity shall smack me in the face The answer is in the bottom At least I hope it will be If not I'll keep on searching Search the end of the world if needed be Fill the void with warm feeling Cancel out the dark Tequila, rum and whiskey Shall heal my heart or kill me I want to be free, away from myself Take away all the pain and loneliness in my heart Give me a sign of love, a sign of relief I want to break free, give me some space to breathe I have a problem that I must address But what actually led me to this mess? Ooo, the warmness will haunt me forever Sad and lonely, wishing for better The day grows so long And I don't know what's wrong But I can remember the pain and suffering The memory, will haunt me, won't let me be
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Awoken In a Nightmare 10:56
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I can be what I wanna be Jumping from dream to dream to dream Creating my own reality Out of different melodies It seems to me that this is all a dream Laughing and crying just to stay awake To see is what to believe Laughing and crying just to stay awake When I die, what would it feel like? Would it be like dreaming for all of eternity? Would my soul transfer to another dimension and restart with a clean slate? Nothing left in my mind Can take back all the time Lost in a void all alone Searching for a way back home When I die, what would it feel like? Would it be like dreaming for all of eternity? Would my soul transfer to another dimension and restart with a clean slate? Would my soul return to this world? Why must I wonder? I guess I will have to wait and see What will be the possibility Will it be the end of everything? Or would it just be the beginning again? What the fuck am I thinking? What? What the fuck am I thinking? Now I'm wondering Is this real or a dream? Now I'm left wondering Is this real or a dream? No, no, no, I don't know Wake me up This is a nightmare This is not a dream This is a fucking nightmare
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Exhaustion 02:48
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I'm feeling trapped inside my head again Want to release my soul into the world But I can't go anywhere without feeling scared So I'll grow comfortable in discomfort for I don't know how long These drugs keep me warm no more These drugs keep my bones so sore Please give me the end The mourning will reign
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Alone With Myself 07:00
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(Instrumental)
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Breathe. Repeat. 06:17
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I feel my heart still belongs to you After all these years and you're still on my mind In my dreams, in my thoughts, I can't escape you Am I supposed to tell you Or keep you locked behind in my memories Somehow, somewhere, I think I still want to be with you I want to believe that you're happy without me I know you don't miss me, but I still feel some kind of way I've made my mistakes I've learned from regrets I know what I want And I'll take the risk I miss what we had And I know I'm so sad But your warmth is all I need to surround me You put no effort into me Why should I put effort into you? Constantly leading me on to what will never be Wasting my time for something that's not true I don't believe I'm being paranoid But I won't continue to let you abuse me I'll break out of this one way or another Either I kill myself or kill the thought of you Because I've been reminiscing through old memories And I've noticed that I've lost a part of me Trying to find a place to fit in When I should just be myself I did a lot of things that I regret I said things that I shouldn't have said Fuck I miss my friends, I miss a lot of you But you left a bad taste in my mouth and I'm trying again to become something brand new Or someone brand new I need to relax my mind I need to breathe in and out I need to relax my mind I need to relax my mind I need to breathe in and out I need to relax my mind Breathe. Repeat. Breathe. Repeat.

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released September 18, 2020

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Mr. Mourning Eastvale, California

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Mr. Mourning
I write music to ease my mind and give you something to think about

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