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The Result of Suffering In Silence

by Mr. Mourning

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A New Beginning (prod. knotperry) 05:04
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I can’t sleep, my mind keeps racing I’m up so late and I can’t stop wasting All this time thinking about you I’m just left with nothing else to do I’m in a dark place and I can’t get out I wanna be okay but I need to get this out I gave you everything I could ever offer But I’m never enough so why do I bother Why do I bother I’m all alone and left with these images Can’t feel a thing since you burned our bridges What did I do to deserve this bullshit I did my best but you never deserved it You took away all of my happiness Left me to rot with all this loneliness Still can’t believe this shit is happening I feel my whole world fucking blackening I feel the weight of the world falling on me Trying to be what I never want to be I am me, not your reflection So please stop, let me think, recollection I’m trying to find my happy place But all I see is your repulsive face I want to feel and be okay again And I don’t want to need you again, and again, and again, and again, and again I don’t want to need you again I don’t, I don’t I’m finally, finally, letting go of what I feel from you I’m finally, finally, letting go of what I feel from you I’m finally, finally, letting go of what I feel from you I’m finally, finally, letting go of what I feel from you I’m finally, finally, I’m letting go of what I feel from you
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Everyday Crisis (prod. knotperry) 05:06
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I’m drowning in myself again and no one hears me scream I’m feeling nothing deep within, hoping this is all a dream Someone please come, wake me up, I don’t want to live this way Please come save me before it’s too late Day by day, night by night Day by day, night by night I will always be tired, I will always be tired I’m cold, I’m cold I ache, I ache I’m far away from okay They’re constantly pulling me down, dragging me by my feet Taking over my mind, taking over my thoughts I don’t feel complete, something’s fucking missing Where’s my sanity, where is me I’m cold, I’m cold I ache, I ache I’m far away from okay I need sleep I need rest I need these demons out of my fucking head I need to be okay Trying to find me I need to be okay Trying to find me
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Hypocritical Narcissist (prod. knotperry) 04:11
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I can see right through your eyes This is not worth the fight You’re giving up easily, you’re selfish Stop and think for once you hypocrite You think it’s all just fun and games Just wait til you get used again When will you open your eyes and realize They’re just winning your heart with their bullshit lies You’re being used in every direction You ignore your friend’s advice and just look for some fake affection You’re always getting hurt, you’ll get what you deserve They’re just using you for their fun, but you will never learn We don’t give a fuck You’re shit out of luck So keep on bitching, attention whore Cause nobody’s listening anymore What will it take for you to open up your mind Understand that you’ve been wasting all of your time They say you’re nothing but a little plaything Lost in lies, looking for more than nothing You’re being used in every direction You ignore your friend’s advice and just look for some fake affection You’re always getting hurt, you’ll get what you deserve They’re just using you for their fun, but you will never learn How does it feel to lose everyone around you All your friends and family disappointed at everything you do Took wrong chances, took wrong risks Now you’re depressed, lonely, unwanted That’s what you get you hypocritical narcissist You never cared for others We were your sisters and brothers But you pushed us away Left us to decay We don’t give a fuck You’re shit out of luck So keep on bitching, attention whore Cause nobody’s listening anymore
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Disappointment (prod. knotperry) 04:44
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Disappointment: I don’t want to bother you But I need help and I don’t know what else to do I know you’re busy with your life and your goals But what can I do with this hurting soul I try surrounding myself with friends and loved ones I don’t want to be a burden to anyone But I can’t take back what I’ve, what I’ve already done Tired and weak, my eyes stay heavy Still can’t sleep, mind feels unsteady Tossing and turning endlessly in bed Trying to shake off this feeling of being dead When will I be able to finally be myself When will I stop feeling judged by everybody else No matter what I try, these thoughts will still stain my brain Please just hear me out, I feel I’m going insane It seems like everyone else is doing better without me As if I can just disappear and no one would care Why do I have to feel this way The only emotion I feel is despair Always replaced, always forgotten about Never remembered Am I important to anyone Am I important to anyone I speak up and they call me crazy Naive to believe everything But what the fuck am I supposed to do when everyone is lying to me I say it’s all fine, when in reality I’m losing my mind I need to keep it together, for the sake of getting better I need to keep it together, for the sake of getting better Fuck I’m a disappointment
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Last Minute 06:51
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I don’t wanna be alone I don’t wanna feel alone I don’t want to be alone I don’t want to feel alone I wanna heal up my wounds and find my way back home I wanna escape this unknown but it’s too well known That I will always be alone, yes, I will always be alone Do you put yourself first Or do you procrastinate Are you the type to ignore yourself Or do you just simply wait Don’t wait last minute Or you will regret it
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Re-Evaluation (prod. knotperry) 04:18
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It’s okay to make mistakes As long as you learn from them You can’t call yourself an adult Unless you apply yourself Yes, you can still be a kid at heart But you still need to grow up and do your part Okay, have your fun Be young and dumb But you only have one life, so don’t fucking waste it You want to see the change in life Then become the change You’re tired of life sucking so much Then find yourself and improve yourself I’m not suggesting that you should change I’m just saying, you should make room for improvement So when you’re feeling down Gotta turn your frown around Smile, because you’re beautiful Smile, let your light glow Find inspiration Fuse your full potential Keep your head up Keep your head up Don’t let yourself slip back into depression
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Lost and Forgotten (prod. knotperry) 04:10
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I’ve been ignored for far too long And I don’t know how long I can hold on Invisibility covers me So blind that you can’t even see That leaving me alone, is starting to feel like home And I’m horribly stuck in deep depression I’m so lost, I feel like I’m forgotten again No one’s bothering to look for me And I feel so alone And I can’t seem where to go I’ve been feeling this for a while now I didn’t know how to tell you I don’t want to cause a scene I just want you to know the truth And ever since you’ve been gone I’ve been searching for a place where I feel I belong But I learned, I’m disposable And I know you all want to watch me burn I’m so lost, I feel like I’m forgotten again No one’s bothering to look for me And I feel so alone And I can’t seem where to go I’m losing all hope I’m losing my return to myself What’s the point of trying anymore, anymore No matter what I do, you’ll still walk out that door I’m lost but I found myself
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'Til That Day 02:45
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(Instrumental)
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You Are Adorablw 06:46
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(Instrumental)
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Farewell My Darling 05:32
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I think it’s time for me to close this chapter And move on with my life It feels like there’s nothing here for me So I must be on my way Cause you’re so far away, far away I gotta move on for my own sake So farewell my darling I hope to never see you again So farewell my darling I hope to never see you again I don’t know what else to say to you But I think I know what to do I want to thank you for everything that you’ve done And my god, I wish you were the one It’s something we all have to see Not everything can be, but we gotta believe
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Behind The Mask (prod. knotperry) 07:16
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I yearn for this feeling to go away You’re gone now, but I still have so much to say Before you left, I foolishly gave you my heart You cherished it, and you decided for us to part Maybe this is for the best, leaving me on my own Don’t let me rest, because when I’m dreaming, I’m dreaming of you It hurts to say your name Because I know that you don’t feel the same Laugh it off, smile it off Laugh it off, smile it off There are things that I want to say to you But keeping still and quiet is what I will do I open my mouth to only words of regret Leaving me weak and wishing we never fucking met I won’t get to sleep tonight, because there’s way too much on my mind I tried to erase those words you said But they’re stored deep inside my head I scratch the surface to let air in But nothing will do, so the pain begins Laugh it off, smile it off Laugh it off, smile it off No one can truly see what’s hidden deep inside I hide behind this mask, am I prepared to die alone Don’t know how long I’ll last, I’m not ready for the unknown Help me, don’t let go, not yet, not yet Now you’ll never know, guess I’ll just never say it As if you don’t care at all I guess I’m alone in this fall I tried to keep myself together But you pushed me even further I feel like I can’t function the same I’ll just disappoint you again Anxiety, overthinking Anxiety, overthinking Try to sleep, and overthink Overthinking, causing issues, keeping me from sleep Overthinking, overthinking, keeping me from sleep I hide behind this mask Don’t know how long I’ll last Help me, don’t let go Now you’ll never know Now you'll never fucking know Tired of being left behind Tired of people giving up on me Tired of never being enough I just want to be loved
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Frozen Bliss 03:13
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(Instrumental)

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released May 21, 2021

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I write music to ease my mind and give you something to think about

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